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"With the help of her spiritual directors, she progressively came to grasp that her painful inner experience was an essential part of living out her mission. It was sharing in the passion of Christ on the cross--with a particular emphasis on the thirst of Jesus as the mystery of His longing for the love and salvation of every human person. Eventually, she recognized her mysterious suffering as an imprint of Christ's passion on her soul. She was living in the mystery of Calvary--the Calvary of Jesus and the Calvary of the poor.
Her living of this inner experience was an integral aspect of her vocation, the most challenging demand of her mission, and the supreme expression of her love for God and for His poor. Beyond providing care for the downtrodden and outcasts of human society, she was willing to embrace their material and spiritual suffering, their state of being 'unwanted, unloved, uncared for,' of having no one.
Although the intense and ongoing spiritual agony could have made her despondent, she instead radiated remarkable joy and love. She was truly a witness to hope, an apostle of love and joy because she had built the edifice in her life on pure faith. She glowed with a kind of 'luminosity,' ... which flowed from her relationship with God."

-Mother Teresa from "Come Be My Light: the Private Writings of the Saint of Calcutta"

I pray that I may cling to the promise that, through pain and trials, Christ is imprinting Himself onto my very life, and that my job is to be a witness to the hope that comes through saying "yes" to Him, even at the expense of a painful life.